Goodbye my friend

Later down the road when I can type without breaking down I will do more of a memorial post, but for now this will have to do.

Tomorrow at 8 AM, Max is being put down. We moved him to the birthing barn with the expecting mothers and since then he has gone really down hill. He can barley get up just to go to the bathroom and without us bringing over the water bucket to him, he wouldn't drink or eat. The vet says he has a neurological issue in his lumbar spine which is causing his butt to roll underneath him and for him to walk on his toe nails. Alpacas have feet like deer. When the vet came also, he grabbed Max's back leg while he was lying down and moved it around to make sure it wasn't a hip problem. Max didn't fight the vet one bit, good right? No, bad. Alpacas would either bounce right off the ground or at least try to resist the vet, but Max did neither. Also he has no muscle mass in his back legs and seems like he would prefer to crawl on his front legs rather then walk on all four legs, its so heart breaking to watch.

More to come at another time.

Maxy, I will love you forever. It breaks my heart to have to say goodbye, but it breaks my heart more to see you suffer the way you have.

Exciting Summer

Wait...but its winter, yes yes I know I am not going insane ^.^ but if all goes right I am going to have one of the best summers of my life, and thats a lot to mount up to.

So what is going to make it so exciting you ask?

Well this Saturday I have an interview with Ever After Mustang Rescue, a rescue that is in southern Maine. I came across this rescue when I was looking for a rescue to volunteer at this summer since I was having no luck finding a student worker position, and guess what? That is what the interview is for! I have been e mailing back and forth with a very kind lady that informed me of their student worker program, I won't get paid but the service is eight weeks long and I will be working 6-8 hour days, five days a week.

I won't be able to do much if any riding at all, but I will be able to assist trainers and do the basic farm chores that I am insane for loving to do so much :)

Ever After Mustang Rescue

That is the link for the rescue. Super excited shall keep everyone posted =D

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Guessing Game

Guess who...

Went back to the doctors on Tuesday...
Had yet ANOTHER X-Ray taken...
Found out that she has a chipped bone by the screw in her foot...
Who has a new fancy cam walker...

Who is pretty much able to do little to nothing for 4-6 more weeks...

Yup you've guess it Yours Truly! <.<
Doc says that she thinks she gave me the go ahead too soon, but also sliding and all that stuff probably didn't help. Stupid stupid feet.

Oh a good note thinking about going to the barn tonight to see Ranger :)

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The Simple Life

I have made a new years resolution that I think I can actually accomplish, sure it's February but better late then never. My New Years resolution is to try and live a simple life. In the past I have tried to push myself and do as much as I possibly can and the most difficult tasks in order for me to feel accomplished, well I want to change that and also enjoy the little things in life. My surgery has really helped this idea along.

So far my simple life plan has been as follows:
Sledding in a grave yard with my best friend
Saw a great view from the said grave yard
Shovel my Grandfathers roof with my twin and sit and enjoy the view
Lay in a snowbank at night during a snow storm
Shovel off my Grandfather's camper roof, after said snow storm, and then enjoy the view and drink my coffee and listen to the birds.

After my last simple "adventure" I was climbing down the ladder to get to the snow bank below me, and I was three or four rungs off from the ground and I looked at my mom, then looked at the snowbank, then back at my mom, and let go of the ladder, spread my arms, and fell on my back into the snow bank and just laid there.

My foot seems to be taking a turn for the worse, I can't seem to do any activities without barley being able to get my foot out of my boot in the end, thus why I have decided I need to start doing simple things and just taking time to enjoy life and the view from my backyard.

Thanks for reading :)